- Member Since: 2006-06-24
- Relationship Status: single
- Orientation: Straight
- Religion: Catholic
- Drink: No
- Smoke: No
- Children: Someday
- Education: High School
- Occupation: Student
So I guess you all are guessing who I am. Well my name is Barbara and I'm 14 going on 15 in October 24. Well my life so far has been crappy. Every guy I seem to like always has a problem with me, either I'm too ugly, not dumb enough, too shy, or they just don't like the emo chick in schoool because I'm not like all the other girls. I have this pain in my heart that never goes away and no one seems to help it. I try to control with the scars on my wrist, but they only make things worse. My parents are no help. I can't talk to the about because they'll freak out and I know it'll only cause them to fight even more than they do now and it just hurts to much to see that. The only cure to my pain is music, a notebook and pencil, and a razor blade if you know what I mean.
School is now out. A big weight off of my shoulders. No more kids yelling and throwing things at me. No more teachers and their quizzes and excuses on how we suck so much. No more homework. And best of all no more seeing my ex boyfriend. Life is just a waste is what I think. I mean why waste your time breathing and trying to be so perfect when your gonna die soon. Everyone does its not a new thing.
People say they care when I cut or when I cry but they don't show it. I'm just a girl that people forget about and never notice if shes hurt or crying. For that reason I'm the girl that smiles when shes hurt, laughs when she wants to cry and cuts to heal her pain.
Music, writing, and reading. Music keeps me alive
Good Charlotte, Simple Plan, Nirvana, Green Day, The Used, Blink 182, My Chemical Romance, The White Stripes, Billy Talent, AFI, Sum 41, Linkin Park, Papa Roach, The Foo Fighters, Taking Back Sunday, No Doubt, Evanescence, New Found Glory, Social Code, Bowling for Soup, Head Automatica, Paramore, Boxcar Racer, Sugarcult, Fall Out Boy, Panic! at the Disco, Relient K, From First to Last, June, Silverstein, All American Rejects, Flyleaf, Angels and Airwaves, Less Than Jake, Cartel, and a whole lot more
Guess Who, Nightmare before Christmas, Nightmare on Elmstreet 1+2, Not Another Teen Movie, Uptown Girls, Legally Blonde, The New Guy, Edwardscissor Hands, Sixteen Candels, Breakfast Club
Favorite TV Shows:
MADE, Family Guy, The Simpsons, 7th Heaven, One Tree Hill, Degrassi, Instant Star, Viva La Bam, Gilmore Girls, Beautiful People, Stevens Untilted Rock Show, F-List, Dedicate Live, Videomaniac, Oven Fresh
Any kind of books